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April 1, 2013

I’ve decided to attempt the A-to-Z Blogging Challenge during this month of April, if for no other reason than to have a guideline for posting each day.  I won’t be good at sticking to just one item for each letter if today is any indication…

A is for “Alone”. This was my first thought for the letter, not purely to muse upon solitude. April is also National Poetry Month and I thought of trying to post a poem each day, or maybe combining both challenges. I won’t have a poem everyday, but this one came to mind today..

Loneliness has been on my mind a lot lately. I’ve lived alone since last July, in the wake of my divorce. Until Christmas Eve I had my dog; while I traveled over the holiday break, I left her in the care of my mother-in-law, and my ex-wife decided that I wasn’t taking proper care of her. Since her mom originally bought the dog for her, I had no recourse. So since I got back on January 6, it’s been just me. Sometimes it’s nice to be able to come and go as you please and not have to answer or explain to anyone. But teaching offers long breaks; a week at Thanksgiving, two-plus at Christmas, another week-plus for Spring Break (ending for me today). One residual circumstance of divorce was that I had very few close friends who were mine— the mutual friends we had were really her friends. And those friends have families of their own, so it’s not like being a 20something single who can just call up a friend to hang out. I even stopped participating in sites which had been my virtual hangouts before. I have to express what’s truly inexpressible appreciation to and for my BFF Becca, who has kept me not just company, but sometimes sane, this past year. I’m hoping that pushing myself out more into the blogosphere here will gain me some new friendships. Pushing myself out is not something I do well at all. My introversion leads me to entropy; once I’m home, it’s hard to motivate myself to go out. But I am leaping in faith, pulling up roots and relocating myself to Texas in two months, with the hope that having done that will create the momentum for me to make friends as part of a new life in a new place.

A is also for ADHD, which I finally was diagnosed with last October. So far we have not discovered a medication that really helps me, which leads to some doubt as to if that’s what’s really wrong with me. Most who have seen me, or even tried to talk to me online, would likely testify that I’m at least ADD; “Squirrelly” didn’t get adopted as my name here without reason.

A is also for Autism, and April is Autism Awareness Month. My stepson has autism, but we like to think autism does not have him. He’s 14 now, and life will always be challenging in ways he may not even realize himself, but he’s also as special as they come.

If you’ve read this far, B is going to be for Bless You. It will also be for Becca and Baseball. See you then.

13 Comments leave one →
  1. April 2, 2013 5:33 am

    And now you have friends all over the world. Just keep talking Jason. We’re listening. 🙂

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  2. April 2, 2013 9:01 am

    Love Poe.
    I’m looking forward to reading the rest of this challenge.
    I’m an ocean apart but I’m good boggling company until I go crazy and start writing post in the comment section that is. But that won’t start today.
    Glad to have you around.
    Ohhh Doggy got a Squirrel (toy), I should send you a picture once it’s half dead for your blog lol

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    • April 2, 2013 11:08 pm

      You’re a boggling blogging bloke, my friend. My dog had a squirrel toy, but it was her fox toy that she loved most. It became just a drooly tatter. Thanks for stopping by, as always 🙂

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  3. April 2, 2013 7:33 pm

    I love how much you love your son. A is for Amazing Dad, Awesome friend, and Accepting everyone.

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  4. April 2, 2013 9:31 pm

    Reblogged this on The Arkside of Thought.

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  5. April 2, 2013 10:15 pm

    Sorry all your friends turned out to be HER friends. That sucks.

    Your devotion to your stepson is Admirable.

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    • April 2, 2013 10:27 pm

      Well not all of them, it’s just that we never really had mutual friends. Her best friend is still my friend (or at least friendly) towards me, whereas my former best friend, who was actually the one other person at our wedding, has completely ignored my existence for the past half-decade, but “Likes” everything she posts on Facebook. Weird.

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